Recover

So here I sit in Sparta. Staying with family who have graciously offered to put me up for my recovery. It's been three days since my surgery. The emotional high has worn off and I'm no longer surviving off pure adrenaline.

So now is the let-down. Now is the time where I really need people to be around, where I need to be encouraged and I need to be reminded that there is hope out there. It's just been so hard to muster it up on my own.

I read this morning in Exodus. Exodus 17:10
10 So Joshua fought the Amalekites as Moses had ordered, and Moses, Aaron and Hur went to the top of the hill. 11 As long as Moses held up his hands, the Israelites were winning, but whenever he lowered his hands, the Amalekites were winning. 12 When Moses' hands grew tired, they took a stone and put it under him and he sat on it. Aaron and Hur held his hands up—one on one side, one on the other—so that his hands remained steady till sunset. 13 So Joshua overcame the Amalekite army with the sword.

This spoke so clearly to me, that I can't do it on my own all the time.. that my arms will get tired. But it is so contrary to who I am now to have people be the lifter of my arms when I can no longer hold them up. I am so used to being independent. I am so utterly always in need of control. This is the season where I need to give up the control and let God take over.. and let Him take over through others as well.

Please pray for me.. as I am feeling vulnerable and weak. I need strength more than ever.